You can call me Cam. 18, film enthusiast on the road to becoming a nurse. I believe in God in all His glories and I owe Him all the credit. I have no intentions in pushing you to believe Him, but at the least.. you'll see glimpses of Him through me. let's be friends, shall we? I don't bite ;)
Okay… So this is kinda awkward… I haven’t been posting on this blog, and now… I suddenly start… Lol.
But I wanted to write something… That really meant a lot to me.. And it just feels as if I did not express how much it did mean to me… And so here goes.
Today, I attended youth night… For like the 8th, 9th time.. And I guess it was filled with surprises because we got to praise and worship at the tent, music was mellow, and I awkwardly gave a speech about giving…. What touched me the most is that they acknowledged my existence… In a very.. sweet way. They prayed for me, all the gladies went around and laid their hands on me… they made me feel like I was a part of them, and I was even addressed to during the study.. And a part of me wished I didn’t have to go.. And that summer would not end…
Unresponsive as I was.. I didn’t know how to express the reactions I had.. Like.. It’s hard. Especially in a group that I just joined.. So, truth be told, it was hard to express the things I should be expressing. I mean, deep down, it shouldn’t be that hard to express the joy and the feeling of belonging… But wow, I’ve never been this shy that I become even more quiet.. Oh gosh.. Is there any way out of this.
But moreover, I just wanted to document this night, because it was filled with mixed feelings of joy, sadness, and the feeling of being loved by so many people… And it saddens me that I didn’t talk as much, or didn’t express the love I should be expressing… But I know these people would be patient… And I’ll try my best to not annoy them as much… Hopefully.