Cool Joyous Petite

You can call me Cam. 18, film enthusiast on the road to becoming a nurse. I believe in God in all His glories and I owe Him all the credit. I have no intentions in pushing you to believe Him, but at the least.. you'll see glimpses of Him through me. let's be friends, shall we? I don't bite ;)

Facetimed with the fambam today… Because it not like I live ten miles away or anything… #actuallyIdo

Just got back from #BruinBash 😄😁 #UCLATransportation

College-ing. #100daysofsummer #0daysleft #itsova

I moved in today 😄 #100daysofsummer #1dayleft

Okay… So this is kinda awkward… I haven’t been posting on this blog, and now… I suddenly start… Lol.

But I wanted to write something… That really meant a lot to me.. And it just feels as if I did not express how much it did mean to me… And so here goes.

Today, I attended youth night… For like the 8th, 9th time.. And I guess it was filled with surprises because we got to praise and worship at the tent, music was mellow, and I awkwardly gave a speech about giving…. What touched me the most is that they acknowledged my existence… In a very.. sweet way. They prayed for me, all the gladies went around and laid their hands on me… they made me feel like I was a part of them, and I was even addressed to during the study.. And a part of me wished I didn’t have to go.. And that summer would not end…

Unresponsive as I was.. I didn’t know how to express the reactions I had.. Like.. It’s hard. Especially in a group that I just joined.. So, truth be told, it was hard to express the things I should be expressing. I mean, deep down, it shouldn’t be that hard to express the joy and the feeling of belonging… But wow, I’ve never been this shy that I become even more quiet.. Oh gosh.. Is there any way out of this.

But moreover, I just wanted to document this night, because it was filled with mixed feelings of joy, sadness, and the feeling of being loved by so many people… And it saddens me that I didn’t talk as much, or didn’t express the love I should be expressing… But I know these people would be patient… And I’ll try my best to not annoy them as much… Hopefully.

We visited Meri before she left for UCSC (Go Banana Slugs!🍌 🐌)… It’s getting too real, man… I wish you the best at SC, @missmerimak, may God bless you and protect you on your college journey! I love you tons!! 💕💕💕 #100daysofsummer #2daysleft

The woes of packing and not finishing… Not being able to sleep on my bed tonight. 😭😭 #whydontyoufinishyouask #YOUDONTUNDERSTANDTHERESSOMANYOUTFITSFORMETOBRING #100daysofsummer #3daysleft

Kanye was in the Bruin Bash page. #jusssayin’

Imma miss these chumps 😭😭 #tearsofflood #eightyearsgoingstrong

Scenic views on the last #WalkingWednesday 😄 we took the trail that I started off on the beginning of summer with Euan and Zhi, but with a little twist… We got lost/we had to go down this very steepy/rocky/deathly path… Which wasn’t a path at all *facepalm* but yesh, it was such a nice way to end it 😊 #100daysofsummer #4daysleft

The last… “Meri looking down on her phone” picture… We just gots done hiking our last #WalkingWednesdays (at Griffith Observatory)

We just gots done hiking our last #WalkingWednesday (at Griffith Observatory)

It’s been a while since I took a picture of my window view… I think I’ll miss looking out into the sunsets when I move in.. #creisinnonstalgia #lofi #100daysofsummer #5daysleft

Wut. #100daysofsummer #6daysleft

Psalm 46:10 Another version could be: “Be still and know that I am God.” I think this scripture is very appropriate to what just happened last week, which was a very hectic week that I stopped halfway through the summer Bible reading challenge (don’t worry, me and my partner are now catching up 😁) and basically forgetting about doing my devotionals. But anyways, this just reminded me to be still and know that God is there and that I need Him more than ever and how He should be the center of everything I do. 😊 #ScriptureSunday